i cant pretend

i wake up everyday wishing i never met you.. i wouldnt have fell for u. and now i wouldnt be broken. i feel like i wanna share everything with u . but i cant because ur always busy.. i dont wanna hate you.. so many things come to mind when i think of u but i cant talk to you. to kno that ur missing from my life
i wont pretend that i intend to stop living
i wont pretend that im good at forgiving
But i cant hate you tho i have tried
i still really really love you
love is stronger than pride
screw it jus screw it
apart from all my social emotional family problems
i kno i love you
i cant continue to do this
this hurts so much
i wanna beat something
i jus wanna forget
i wanna forget
i wanna forrget
please jus dissappear
i cant do this
i cant do this
please leave me alone