This is how I truly feel about myself, how I just want to be accepted in this world. |
I don't like the way I look So I look down I don't like my smile, wish my teeth were white and perfect So I don't smile at all I don't like my body So I hide it in baggy clothes and avoid the mall at all costs I don't have any friends So I just bury my head in books, imagining myself in the character's life So I just watch tv, play video games, spend hours writing I always wanted to be accepted So I pressure myself to be almost perfect Then cry because it'll never happen Wish that I found more pleasure in my life Though others say I have a great job, great man, great writing abilities I see that and wonder if it'll all disappear...in an instant I just want to feel completely free Instead of held down by my dad, who rules with one legal word--guardianship Took advantage of my weaknesses just to chain me down Just because I'm the only child left, every one else is gone I wonder if I'll ever feel special I wonder how I can get through it all I wonder if all I can do is wonder, if all I can do is sit alone I never thought I was the best, just want to be accepted for who I really am |