A Season's Regret

I didn’t think I’d end up here
The leaves have turned, seasons passed
I didn’t think I’d be the one with the tears

I thought I’d set out on a straighter path
The horizon’s just before me
Yet somehow I can’t quite reach it

Greener pastures,  I told myself
Distance, busy the mind
I’ll get over you.  But I’m still chasing the memories.

Wind blows right through me
Stills my every step
I thought it was supposed to set me free

I know you’re the one I promised to
How could I forget, I laughed with you
Cried with you, danced and loved, and lied with you

I guess somewhere, sometime
Something was said
I suppose that meant that beginning of the end

I’m sorry, then, for everything
Now that I can stop and look back
I would have done things differently, yes.

I would have been sure to smile
Every time you walked through that door
And waved you off not just every once in a while

I could have made more time, more often, to say
Thank you to the man who shared his home
It was your castle, at the end of the day

Can you recall just when the night
Began to take up all of our days
And when dawn became a bitter light

I think that’s where our journey began
We became mere shadows on the walls
I remember searching every corner

Ships passing in the night
How unfair; to this new love we were no match
It stole you from me, hardly put up a fight

Would you ever again stand next to me
Would you hold my hand as the storm rolled in
Just as you did, so many nights, what seems so long ago

Could we watch from the patio, carnival lights
And circle the city on senseless little drives
And wait for eternity on park benches just outside

Would you start up that music just one more time for me
See out another season with those never-ending melodies
And could we gather by the heater for one last long-awaited sleep?

You know.. I’d really like that.