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by Nadeje Author IconMail Icon
Rated: 18+ · Other · Adult · #1638141
The emotional rollercoaster when sick and tired is tired of being sick and tired
I’m thru!!!


You are so full of it
Your lies and your ego and your talk is full of shit
And my attempt to believe in you is making me sick
Five years of giving and loving and kissing and fucking
And you still don’t know what you have
Until it left
And I bet
All the lies, and your ego and your talk has no meaning
Cause everything you stood for had no feeling
And everything I meant to you also seems
Like the lies that built your ego and catered to your talk
I gave you everything I had mentally and emotionally
And you took it with you when I put you out
Cause you stole from me and now I am without
Life
I sent you out as sheep amidst the wolves
Who knew you would lose track & be pulled
Only to find within you the real man I needed
You lost track & heeded on another’s wants and you proceeded
To be what she needed you to be
Only to secure everything you need
Your greed, once again has you in a place you don’t care to be
And now you desire to be with me
Lies & manipulations keep me at bay so I can’t see
I’m blinded by love only and the rest is history
But the best is locked up with a key of mentality
Cause what I needed to know I wouldn’t find out unless you told me
Up late one morning I watched thee, it brought out the old me
And you promised to love, protect & hold me
But hold up, now she’s pregnant with your seed
And you hang around because of your selfish needs
And as crazy as it seems I always wanted to be
That woman who had your back and stood by your side
Giving all that I could to keep you alive
Holding on to every word like a child to mom’s pinky
Believing every verb and noun you kept speaking
But your sneaky…..
You made me believe that we could achieve my ultimate dream
But you deceived me
And now when I lie down at night, fighting to sleep I keep thinking of
How you’re laid up with her
In the beginning it was simple but it’s those things in life we forget
Loving you was easy but who knew that it would get
Hard, slippery when wet
Taking spills and falls trying to forget
I let you abuse me mentally with cheating relentlessly
Cautious to my dignity, but loving you infinitely
Yet you deceived me
Intrigued me with the warmth that lay beside me
Sometimes not wanting to rise at days beginning and just wanted to lie beside thee
And take in all that was you and embracing
Proving that I am that ride or die & no one can replace me
Thoughts of the future, sweet dreams of you and I down an aisle
Turned into horrible nightmares of only I going wild
I stand motionless, soulless, heartless full of coldness
Cause you only let, this emotional pet destroy what we had and she stole my next
Scene of life, my dream of life it seems so right and it felt so nice
To know that I had received my prize what God had set aside?
For me….it was all for me
I sacrificed my breathe to bring you happiness
But you stole the physical and mental and brought me emptiness
And who would only guess, while learning what was wrong you went jet to the left
And laid up with this bitch who cup isn’t even half full
And what it’s filled with can only be described as stool
Cause like you she’s full of shit
And my attempt to believe you is making me sick
And my attempt to receive you is making me quit
Continue to indulge in you is making me miss
The love that God has in store for me so I give
You the space to realize you
And I the space to materialize NEW!
And I’m thru….
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