Gravity of my heart and soul

I shouldn't have to explain this to you
Why my heart is shattering
Why my soul is screaming
You should know by the tears streaming down my cheeks
Your words cut me deeper everytime
You break my soul to the point of nothingness
and pour concrete over my thriving heart
Every night I pray,
as teardrops and smeared mascara stain my pillowcase,
that all of this will change
Hoping and praying for my soul to strengthen,
instead of the constant shredding and shattering of my emotional being
I ask myself if this will ever change
In return, silence overthrows my thoughts
I know you will let me down again