pain

All these years I have cried
I am tired and I just want to die
The time goes by
And I am still alive
I am too weak to carry on
For all I do is cry
Everything is so wrong
I have dealt with it for too long

I am going to commit suicide
And that's not a lie
I have tried before...
But I was just left me a little sore

The more I deal...
The pain turns so real
I like to feel the pain
But don't try to tell me I ain't sane
Cause that's just my way of dealing with this pain