new love

i think this is going to end badly
for i have found a new love
but i am pushing him away farther and farther
because i am scared of letting him in
i really care about this guy
he is really special to me
but i dont know how i can tell
him that i am in love with him
he isnt ready for that kind
of serious commitment nor am i
but the more i talk to him the
more i fall in love with him
as each day passes i think of him all the time
i wake up and go to sleep thinking of him
im so scared that he might leave me
if he finds out how i feel about him already
i care so much about him and im spinning
in circles trying to keep it hidden from him
he knows i care but i dont think he really
knows that im falling in love with him yet
i think that this might just actually be
a brand new love for me if he doesnt leave me
he is everything i have dreamed of and so
much more that i only to be with him right now
there has only been one other person who
has ever made me feel this way about them
when im with him my world stands still and
nothing else matters except being with him
when i see him my heart smiles and jumps
and i get so excited just to be around him
is this really a new love entering me or
is it just wanting me to think i love him?