Broken

Broken and unfixable
Torn down to nothing but shreds that will blow away in a matter of minutes.
Hatred so dark and cold fill me up inside
Numb me with their painful powers
Surrounded me so fast and so soon that I forgot there was light
Dark and unbareable memories flood me with depression
A type that cannot be fixed with pills
Which leads to cutting
Scars fill the empty spaces above my wrists
A toxic poision running through my veins thats paralyzes me in place
Bruises cover my body as I watch myself hurt the skin covering my being
Unrecongnizable pieces lay around my family
Not knowing what kind of monster I turned into
They stand around my broken body watching me distruct myself
Ungodly spazums release from my body like im addicted to an exciting new drug
Blood dripping from my arms and legs makes me experience a new fine frenzy
As I lay here helpless and unable to stop myself even if I wanted to
I fall further and further into an all time low
Having to see all the problems he has caused me with his strong and painful touch has haunted me
The way he said the words he spoke to me still makes me scared to close my eyes
Because I know there a chance he will be there in my nightmares
The way he caused me to turn into this type of freak that everybody is tired of being around
How I cover up myself and build walls around myself so nobody could ever get in again
The way I cant get used to the darkness that hes put me in
Even though Ive been surrounded in it for a long time
As I look at myself
I cant help but to think...
HOW BROKEN I TRULY AM...