Hope burns out for a good man |
Dad's Fireflies Glowing bright red from a distance, From within stress-filled, weary hands, Like an S.O.S. calling for assistance, Drifting upward in smokey,curled bands. His spirits, like his job, were on swing shift, Where union meetings became fewer and fewer. Hopes sailed away like a used up cigarette, Someone had carelessly thrown into the sewer. Creator of countless tobacco-born fireflies, That he snuffed out along with his dream, Of retiring from the factory he did so despise, Finding comfort in white wands of nicotine. This man didn't cry on someone's shoulders, He carried his burdens all alone and with pride. Though the weight pressed on him like boulders, He smoked away fears he kept bottled inside. I can still see him there sitting all alone His cigarette a small beacon in the dark. In the home he struggled to pay on his own, While disappointments had put out his spark. for my father: Billy Gene Manhart author's notes: Poverty can become a mindset, a thing expected. My father grew up in poverty, his father had been left in an orphanage when his full-blood Native American mother died along with several siblings. Poverty can become generational, and our elders think they are protecting us if they teach not to hope for too much. But God instructs us otherwise. He expects us to see our visions and the plans he has for us. My dad was a meek and loving man, but he had a weak spirit when it came to hope. I am not judging, he went through very hard circumstances that adults today would have a hard time dealing with. He was hard on himself, and never attended church due to being a smoker. He thought he was unworthy of salvation since he smoked. Near the end of his life, he came to know the full grace of Jesus Christ. He was ushered into heaven with not one, but two angels at his side. If only he saw himself as God saw him all along, a precious soul loved by the merciful Creator, worthy of all he could hope for. Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith Jehovah, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your latter end. Romans 5:1-5 - Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. |