18 till I die

Honestly many wanted to know what actually happened to that girl in Permanent Twilight and as Melanie. In one paragraph, it's tragic so don't read it, if you are predisposed to depressive disorders, only reason it's ASR. In an ER, a good one at that, they were trying to find a vein to draw blood. She kept singing and later said "Please, let me." A senior doctor said not to try this at home as she drew from the chest and said "It doesn't hurt anymore." She was kept sedated, but she developed a severe lack of appetite. Doctors had to fore-go nasal feeding due to vomiting and she thought it was like 'The Exorcist.' She looked very young and pale, like eighteen. Her weight dropped to 80 pounds, she replied "Though I'm eating, there's a large snake in my belly, that's eating the food." A 24 hour diurnal rhythm completely went away like men in caves for a year. Awake for a day, asleep for another, she thought it was very cold, the visiting hours, long nights. Specifically against sympathy from a benefactor and others she was worried that it maybe painful after death now that she was two hundred years old. Last I know about taking a last breath or going to a better place or getting out of the phenol odored hospital, she had a blood pressure of 60/30 yet a pulse of 50; I knew in my limited medical knowledge; a drop in pressure generally accelerates the heart into tachycardia. In that hospital terminally ill people are given opiates. White, young, she was bright in making trivia with the staff, she weighed 75 pounds. I think she closed her eyes for the last time, many times. I'm the one who is selfish, narrating biographies and following around people condemned, satisfying my inner child to sleep well at night and give peace a chance.