Questioning the path life has led you to and focusing on changing things. |
When will they end, these long and predictable days? Where I feel trapped, wandering through a maze constantly stuck in a haze and fighting just to get through each day. I need the key that will unlock the gates that allow love, happiness and creativity to flow into me providing for me serenity that will wash over me like waves of silent ecstacy. Yes..I have the audacity to speak these thruthful words that trickle from my heart, which holds a limited capacity for tedious, everday, mundane mediocrity. I've become heavy from these weights that which have been placed upon my weakening shoulders. Is it fate that has led me to deviate from my past plans? Or is it some divine intervention leading me down this path? I wish I knew I wish I knew which road to take but my vision has become limited and I don't want to make another mistake. So I sit and allow fear to overtake..me so I just sit and allow my mind to comtemplate what could be. I'm tired of waiting all I do is wait, constantly anticipating my next move but never following through. I'm tired of sitting on the threshold of success and falling backward Constantly allowing skeptics to get my best and feeling conquered. Being told no only makes me more determined to succeed to prove that I can accomplish the things I've always dreamed. Strength is building up in me like a drug running through my blood stream and I'm not coming down the lengths to which i'd go for my passions are increasing and the possibilities are abound. Fast, fast approaching is the day when I will finally disobey what I'm supposed to do and make my own way my own way My way. |