Tired

tired of loving so long

Like in a puzzle, my head is very confused.

Confused of many things.

My heart is really on its track of letting you go

but there is something that is not clear.



I will never break my promise to let you go

for I am already tired, tired being a fool.

I was deeply in love with you and too many hopes.

Hopes that you will come back to rescue me.



But right now, all those hopes are now diminishing

Diminishing along with my old loving heart.

A part of me still longs for you but she will never ruin you.

The old me will not ruin your present life.



I will not pretend to be alright for this pain is so deep.

As deep as the wound from a gun shot.

The pain is like I'm suffering from a Stage 4 Cancer.



What's inside me is a bomb that will explode in no time.

There is no line to choose from so that I could disconnect it.

There is no timer to turn it off.



Im really tired, tired of doing anything related to you.

I do not know what to do anymore.

I used all my strength just to love you this long.

So how, how will I regain to fall in love again?