Reality

Reality is eluding me,
Scaring me, I'm forced to see.
Nothing ever feels quite right.
Daily life becomes a fight.
Breakdown on the brink,
How much farther can I sink.
Detached, and I don't care.
It's more that I can bare.
Forced too fast to mature.
Longing for some sort of cure
For these feelings I have inside,
So I no longer have to hide.
My mind is always full of ringing,
While to this fear I am clinging.
Sleep is my only solace,
For all else I couldn't care less.
From where does all this stem?
I need to find some answer
To this mental cancer.
Reality is such a bitch,
Why can't I leave this ditch?
Gone and went, another year,
Taught me to lose all fear.
Losing all fear of dying,
As hard I can I am trying.
Losing all fear of living,
Myself I am now forgiving.
Reality becomes more clear,
Sanity to me is near.
No more do I sabotage,
Or make up my own mirage.
Unto the world I break free,
Clearly now I can see.