Hell Comin' Soon

Can I be honest with you?
Promise you won’t laugh at me.
I didn’t ever feel good enough.
You made me try, and I just couldn’t succeed.
I’m the best in my eyes, but yours, I’m only what you choose to see.
To make life worthless, it’s not possible.
To make me better, it’s not possible.
To change me to what you want, it’s not possible.
I feel like I’m everything and nothing.
All you do, you’re blaming it all on what used to be.
Those hurtful words,
You were my heaven on earth, but hell is coming soon.
They never cut me deep, but it sure struck something.
I made myself be, the perfect thing.
But it’s too much. I couldn’t keep it up.
And you made me blame myself.
I felt just like, I was nothing to you.

Forget all the past, all the pity, all the self-worth.
I’m not that person no more.
I don’t care what you think, what you say, what you feel.
I stand for myself, only myself, because that’s all that’s needed.
You’re the past, the bad dream. You’re nothing to the new me.
With the next girl you see, let her be your heaven on earth.
I’d rather be your hell coming soon.