KWENTO NILA (their story)

sally said: they do not end the day without talking about their misunderstandings. and even if it'll take them until the wee hours of the morning- they have decided that they shall deal with it.

karen said: there will come a time that you would feel bored with him. and with that you would have to allow yourself to get some space. but what will make you go back with be commitment and love. once you would again remember why you, in the first place, are with that person, you would run to him and fall with him once again.

i told claudine one time: it is just that he is one of the persons whom i can be with for a long time- be that eternity. he is a friend and a good companion...

the elders usually tell, "aguray to ayat (love will wait)". education, career, life should be a young girl's priority. sometimes they say that teenage love is always untrue. they say they understand- hormonal changes during adolescence- estrogen, testoterones.

i have a boyfriend. and he is a great guy. he leaves some pages unread and he stays. unlike some/ or not,i do not require or demand him anything. i haven't told him i love him too when he said it out of nowhere. because i just won't say it. i do love him now. but i have reasons. i, too, have a lot of ideas about relationships- everybody has. i tried to search for these knowledge. i have taken the risks. i even had a jerk as a boyfriend. and an ugly one at that. and my current guy seem to have erased every hatred i had.

is this just mere estrogen? a female intuition? isn't this love? a silly question to be asked. but we all have an opinion on this matter. i love feeling this thing. i love being with him. i love everything about him. and it doesn't stop right there. it would not stop right there.

if i'll try to end this this story now. there would be a lot of plots: unfaithfulness, faded love, ... i know a couple, he already hitted her for a couple of times. he went out with other women. he never came home. he screamed at her. he threw money in her face.... a lot more. for twenty three years they are still together. that is love. that was my orientation of love and patience. now, i know that it is called martyrdom and stupidity. sad to say these are my parents. but maybe it is love right? maybe i just do not see some things. maybe, this is destiny forced to be fulfilled.

anyway, i learned not to care. i shall have the love that moves mountains. i shall go search for what is real and what is not. i shall know that love is like a flower blooming, every petal is a new beginning. i shall know that love has no restrisctions but it has limitations. love has no bounderies but love is reasonable.

"i'm not scared of falling." he told himself." the part im scared of is where you finish falling." but he knew he was lying to himself. it was the fall he was scared of- afraid of flailing and tumbling helplessly through the air, down to the rock floor below, knowing there was nothing he could do to save himself. -Neil Gaiman, Neverwhere