Stuck

Pulled the shades this morning
the dark that kept me safe is gone.
Can’t handle that yearning
that always comes with the dawn.
That urge to be out, is pulling,
but you are out there too
Too hard to keep my thoughts-
from running straight to you.

Hate this secret hope,
all of my stupid doubt.
That fantasy of giving up everything,
just to let it all out.

I’m stuck in this in between.
It would kill me to cause anyone pain.
I’m stuck in this feeling,
but I know this connection will wane.
No real reason to stay here in bed,
but these emotions are so hard to duck.
As hard as I try, I’m - just stuck.

The snow is light outside,
but the wind is blowing up drifts.
No need to test the ride.
I’ll stay here till this feeling lifts.
When I close my eyes for a second,
I only see yours
When I think of your smile,
I only want more
How did this happen?
My feelings locked up, with no luck.
I can’t seem to get my feet up,
with the weight of it all, I’m Stuck

I’m Stuck in this in between,
I am hating all of my  worry.
I’m stuck in this feeling,
but with alcohol’s help it gets blurry.

Now drunk, I’ve given myself no option.
I wouldn’t want to trust my luck.
Anyway, I’m sure it’s just infatuation,
such a good thing I’m stuck

Now it’s the end of the day,
and I’ve made it through.
I know now my will, is stronger than my heart
Still, I’m stuck with the thought of tomorrow,
At some point I'll see you,
and my strength will be picked apart.

I don’t know how to stop this,
to get ahold of this emotional -upchuck
I just know that until I’m stronger,
I’m-- just stuck.