Just a Relapse...

A part of my life has come to an end

From now on it’s looking forward to tomorrow

No thinking back of yesterday’s memory

No reminding of my intense sorrow



Maybe once to say goodbye

Just one time reliving the dream

That has ended abruptly with no warning

There’s truth in ‘nothing is what it seems’…



Holding on to something

Something that will never be

Is like holding on to pain

Admitting what this is doing to me



My dreams have died that day

Hope of love and trust and more

On the horizon winking at me

If only things could go back to before



Choices get thrown on our paths

There was no win/win in mine

This game was played knowing I’d lose

There’s no way I could go back in time



I’d take a different road then

Knowing then we won’t meet

Not knowing what I’d miss out on

I’d still be on my feet



But then I wouldn’t have known

What it is like to be adored

Never knowing the intensity in love

Isn’t that what we all strive for…?



There are days that I can just ignore

The storms of emotion inside me

Those days I pretend to be strong

And I deny what was meant to be



Then days like today I am weak

And I miss you to my very core

I can’t cry – they don’t need to know

That my mind has drifted to before



You’re still in my dreams

Dreams I so wish would come true

I know I won’t hear it again

Your voice saying I love you



This anti-love campaign has torn me

Between admitting the truth and living

Life has no meaning without love

This difference between taking and giving



This is just a relapse, ignore

I’m getting up and standing tall

Now being me again and screaming

There’s no way I’ll ever fall…