Did you ever wonder?

Did you ever wonder what it would be like to get married? and find the ONE man of you're dreams? and than find out you have not so familiar things in common? I did! I thought I found the ONE who could make my dreams come true and found out NOT only we didn't have what I wanted in a marriage and complete obsites, and than disappointed comes in. Do you ever wonder why you passed up a one man of you're dreams and found out hes in love with someone else or living with someone else? How life seems so unfair and ways I can't compare. I am so disappointed in this marriage that I almost wanted to die, because every night I would go to bed in tears!! I think if I would of never gotten married until I found the right man, this man and i could of remained the best of friends and we would of been happier, marriage to me is very hard and confusing! Do you ever wonder why you wake up everyday and try to go on living? And then one day you search for the man who YOU lost contact with and found out hes living near you but only a ten miles away? YOU see I was dumb when I let this one man go because of an age difference and not only he could of been my MR. RIGHT and I let him go, and never be seen again. I know in my heart that GOD brought this person back to me for a reason, for a second chance? Or what? I can only now guess. I just thought I would just bring up my thoughts into writing. Isn't this what writing is about?