Reflection of a tattoo

Like a tattoo, it has never gone away.
Time and time again, I wanted to laser it away
But when I stand bare naked in front a mirror,
I look at it and reflect upon why I have chosen to scar it in
And I realize, memories stop me from going array.

In the abyss of love I had felt so hard,
Even when it ended, I never regretted the choice I made
You hurt me, emotionally and mentally
But you thought me something that I am still trying to get so bad
The way you made me love, and the way I appreciated love.

Like wind my emotions sway
Up night, five years till today
Never have I forgotten how it was like to be swept of my feet
Until.today, tears never fail to flow
Because I'm waiting till the next time I can feel that again.

Waiting by your door, waiting by the phone
Gone were the days where pain was the syringe I injected my morphine into
I don't love you anymore, but I never stopped the feeling of how I loved someone.

For that, I thank you.
I thank you for the love you have shown me,
the hurt you have given me to grow stronger
And the courage to know that I deserve to be loved without all the emotional conflicts within.
I would never wish bad luck, but I would not wish you well.
You are just a bad tattoo that I need to overdraw on.