A poetic description of a difficult time in my life. It helped me get past the pain. |
I once was daddy’s little girl I once stood hand in hand With my sweet dad and mom In life’s long trodden path But something dreadful happened A darkness thundered in My life was thoroughly shattered And now I’m free at last Free from the love I once knew Free from the joy of family too Free from life’s sweet filled fun Free from all my loved ones, gone. There is no tie, enduring bond Between a father and little one He grew rough and very angry I grew sad and lost He grew dark and lost in depths I was now at a loss Then I fought many bloody battles I fought him time and time again I fought his touch, His look, His presence I reveled greatly in his long enduring absence My life was shattered, my heart was free But I was bound by anger, not revelry And now I’m alone, without a soul And I’m afraid my life cannot play another role See the tears, like rain sliding on glass Hear the shouts, like the clash of lightening Go on with life, like the clearing of a bombed out mess Free, yes, but bound indeed, how frightening I’d rather be trapped in blissful love Than lost in the depth of despair Held in arms that never gripped a sword Kissed by one whose tongue never warred Surrounded by ones whose past was clear of baggage And who wished for only the best, not savage I wish for no unconquerable depression I wish for the wreckage it leaves behind to be abandoned But now the only reality is pain The only love is broken, only I remain The only family I had is shattered With the only dreams now few and scattered My dreams are of now my of own making, with no-one else involved My life is built on the minute pieces I was able to hold But my love shall lay dormant, healing, Until the time when trust can be given, revealing Someone trusted to not betray and strangle, Someone trusted to not skewer and mangle But these are only dreams These will not come true At least, that’s what my mind tells me now We’ll see what the truth shall be…soon… |