a dark poem |
It's become cold outside, bitter pain on my skin I long for the warmth of her touch driving deep within There has become a void that needs to be filled before my inner spirit and life begin to wilt She kept me safe, warm, and intensly aware of minute details, such as the scent of her hair Such power I felt within her, stirring long after her body grew tense, and her final breath left her A body so beautiful not a soul could look past Succumbed to decay, her youth could not last I watched death, in it's slow approach claim this latest woman who could ease my pain and now I sit with her, not yet ready to stir not ready to move on, an immobilized cur Another remote walk alone comes tomorrow, another mound in the dirt, filled with all my sorrow Soon I must leave and start my search for a new bride Somewhat suggestible, with a strong desire to stay alive Most likely a month, maybe two, is all that she'll last under the burden of my love, death sure comes fast How long can I delay, 'fore I need to search again How long to hide an urge that stands as terrors kin Knowing what I need, and keeping myself from it Is sure to cause me pain 'til my heart is again lit Next time will be different, this I keep hoping Next time death will sit by, idly watching While I do what I must to fend off my longing What am I doing here I know I can't fight it akin to survivalism is my urge, my longing the harder I fight this the farther I fall away I can't deny anymore my urge, my longing |