Shame On You!

You blamed me for your weakness
And now you blame me for your strength..?!
For 6 months you pushed and begged me
After 8 months I answered your plea and told you my story
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For two hours the words were on me
For two hours you were speechless
And I knew you were oblivious to my world
Perhaps now you understand the foolishness of your curiosity
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I could see you were in awe as the tears ran silently from the corner of your eyes
I only did what you asked
And you left a man apart behind cuz you couldn't grasp a past as mine
For such insensitivity I shall shatter your iced heart
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Words will never suffice the pain you inflicted upon me
The day you were no-longer present or reachable
But I'll say it the only way I know how to
I shall share the darkest path of my soul with you:
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I gave you a place in my heart and you wired it with Semtex
I told my deepest secrets and biggest regrets
My swamped days with liquid and illusionary chemicals
Was that the reasons which had you flee?
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Was it my days living in a suitcase?
My uncontrolled anger and now subdued pains?
Perhaps it was the rulings of judges
And my way to cope with a sentence?
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I don't hate you, I loathe you
I feel sorry for your narrow mind
That you can't see beyond coffee and Unicorns
And that you think my past would cause issues in the current present
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They say there are plenty of fish in the sea
But they don’t warn about Stingrays like you
So calm and at ease with a floating love
Blinded by your beauty whilst forgetting your poison
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You put question-marks on my scars
Even though you knew the truth would hurt
You still had to have what you never really wanted
And I paid the price for your ignorance of bliss.