He Loves Me

Why hide the tears and why hide the pain ?
Why believe the words “It won’t happen again” ?
So much anger and hatred has built up inside
Why did I choose to stay so long and hide ?

Hurt and pain can damage your soul with such might
That your whole inner person gives up the fight
A former shadow of who you were before
If only I had the strength to walk out of that door

That one more chance I kept on giving
When my heart no longer wanted to keep on living
I could never forgive and I will never forget
But I will not let my life be filled with regret

He taught me well during our time together
To fear him will stay with me forever
But fear turns to anger as the time goes by
Soon you have no tears left to cry

Mind games only occur while your mind works
What happens then when the mind starts to break
When nothing seems real , what was your name ?
How can this man think this is a game ?

You start going insane and time stands still
I now know what can drive a women to kill
The man you once loved so very long ago
Sits back smiling seeing you so low

Waking each morning wishing you were no longer here
When nothing in the world holds anything dear
When breathing and living don’t mean anything no more
That is when you wish you had walked out of that door