Not Guilty

My mind is racing.
My heart is beating
Faster and faster,
And then receding.

It doesn’t make sense.
It doesn’t feel right.
All the feelings I have,
I’m trying to fight.

I know what I want.
I know what I need.
But why is it not,
Making sense to me?

Sometimes I love you.
Sometimes I don’t.
I should break it off.
But I know that I wont.

So the feelings remain,
Like a rock in my heart.
Why should I end?
What we didn’t even start.

Goodbye I said,
I hope you understand.
This didn’t turn out,
The way I had planned.

But I know that it was,
The right choice I made.
You should have known,
When our love started to fade.

So I’ll move on.
So I’ll find someone new.
To tell you the truth,
I’ve already found a few.

No it’s not wrong,
Yes its ok.
It’s not my fault,
Things happened that way.

Love took over.
And complicated my life.
It held me down,
And stabbed my heart with a knife.

What im saying,
Is things turned out for the best.
My new man will fix my heart
And insert it back in my chest.

Now I am not hurt,
Better yet I am free.
I am not to blame.
And I am NOT guilty.