With Her

I don’t know what to feel anymore.
I’m tired of thinking about you.
Tired of crying for you.
I just want to let you go
But I don’t know how.
You’re the only man I ever truly loved.
Only, now I’m not sure if the man I loved was really you
Or just who I imagined you to be.
Does it even matter now?
You’re with her and I’m alone.

Did you really love me?
Was every thing you ever told me a lie?
You lie about so much
And when you get caught you say,
“I was just playin’.”
“I was only messin’ with you.”
Were you just playing when you said you wanted to be with me?
Were you just messing with me when you said you wanted me to have your child?
Does it even matter now?
You’re with her and I’m alone.

Why do you still call me?
Why did you come to my house?
You said you just wanted to see me.
Just wanted to say, “Hi!”
Do you miss me?
Do you still love me?
Or do you just enjoy playing my emotions?
Enjoy disrupting my life?
Does it even matter now?
You’re with her and I’m alone.

I need to move on
It’s time to leave you behind.
Maybe I’ll find a new love
Start a new life and be happy.
Maybe we can learn to be friends
Leave our love and its problems in the past.
Maybe someday you’ll realize that you love me
And ache for what you threw away.
But it doesn’t really matter now.
You’re with her and I’m tired of being alone.

-T