The Lover's Secret

    I Have a secret, I love my lover. The first time me and my lover had sex it wasn't meant to happen. I had my period, we were just friends. how could anything happen. Well it did and I remember his words "If it feels right it is right." He ask me to be his girl that day and I didn't answer till the next day.

    We went out for two weeks. He's just everything I ever want in a guy. He thought me theirs no need to argue or to be mistreated by a guy. I broke up with him over jealousy. Worst thing I've ever done. I broke his trust in me, he was in the hospital in pain. He made it clear he would never give me another chance. From their we turned into lovers. He got someone else and it hurts.

    I know I'm  wrong. If I were in her place I wouldn't like it at all. But is hard to give up his touch. I never liked sex in my life. Him his eyes and aggressiveness have gripping on his bed and cumming like crazy. He knows what and how I like it.

    I still love him just to be near him makes me happy. Sometimes I Wish I could change things and then I remember, no matter how much I want to change the past or how many tears have been drop, you can't change it you can only face it. It's just too hard for me to tell him I love him. So I rather just enjoy the time I get with him. I mean I know about the present but I don't know the future. 

    Most people may find this as a wrong thing but the pain of losing someone you love is the same pain as knowing you may never see this person that makes you feel so good. This person that from the first day you saw you knew there was something about them that made you want him. Just remembering his smile made you smile and cry. Smile because its the most Beautiful thing on earth and the tears just let you know he will never be yours again. Just I hug from him means the world to me. Every kiss he gives me is unforgettable. I can search but i won't find a love that's just like his. In my mind he'll always be my baby and in reality he is just a friend into the door closes, then it'll be a secret.