Forgotten?

In the beginning it was so different
there was passion, romance, kisses
for no reason, hugs and pats on the
ass for no reason, a glance from across
the room that told me with his eyes that
he wanted me and loved me with all his
heart, and that things would never change

We weren't young and stupid, we were
both in our 30's and had both been through
a failed marriage, so we knew what we
were doing, and i expected it to all fade
away eventually, ( you know all the lovey
dovey stuff) I used to tell him how
I would cherish every memories/moment with
him because I knew that after the "new"
wore off that things would just be "blah"

But it's only been 4 years since that "new"
how could it be that is disappeared so soon?
What did I do to make him not desire to hold
me all night long or take me to a movie or
to a nice dinner? What happened to the roses
for no reason, or the simple card that said
"i love you baby".

I love him with every part of me, but I'm hurting
so bad, I just want him to remember the love
we had in the beginning and love me that way
again. Was it something that I did? Did I get
fat, to fat for him, did I become unattractive
to him, what did I do? I would give anything to
have that love back again.

I cry when he doesn't even know, I do it in
the bath when no one can hear me. He wouldn't
care though I don't think, he's not that kind of
man, at least not anymore. Tears don't bother
him, his first wife ruined him with tears and
they were fake, so my tears don't bother him
Even though when I cry I wished he would just
take me in his arms and hold me tight and
make me feel loved

Don't get me wrong he is a good man
a good provider and takes good care of all of
his family. But there are just somethings that I
need, I told him in the beginning
that I required alot of attention, I think
he may have thought I was joking. I wasn't
I need to be loved and told I'm loved more than
anything, I need to be held and cherished and
kissed and romanced.

Just because we are married doesn't mean that
he has to stop trying to romance me and show
me that I'm it for him. Right?

So, how do I get him to understand
that what I want is to have him hold
me in his arms and tell me
everything is going to fine, and that
I'm the only woman he will ever
love? And the only woman he needs

I know just tell him right? Well I have, so many
times, that doesn't work. I know he loves me
But he has a hard time showing it to me, I
need him, I love him, I miss my husband and
the way things were in the beginning, what
I would give to have my husband back again.

Where did you go baby? I need you back again.
I love you to the moon and back, and all I want
is for you to want me as much as need and
want you.

forgotten wife