Better Now

I am about to explode
My emotions are boiling
I need to unload
Before I melt down
I want to hold you
So I can just forget
But you are busy
Unloading your own griefs
Of which I could have been one
With your friends
I cannot eat
I close myself in my room
The solace calms me
Pen hits paper and I release
All the conflicting notions
Have flowed onto the page
Again I think clearly
The page burns
This was the best way
My mind and heart unburdened
I realize the errors I made
The excessiveness of presence
That caused you to push me away
Determined to improve
Thus ends another day