My Eyes Have Been Opened

My eyes have been opened
Where have I been?
These things around me
The things I fought so hard to have
Are meaningless

The wasted time, money, memories
You were right there waiting for me
Here I am, my eyes are open
My ears hear
I have fallen so hard and yet got up
Again and again to only fall once more

Filling my life with a void that surrounds me
Empty days, dreams, and hopes
It was a delusion I was telling myself
A lie I believed because others did
Masked as possessions, jobs, friends
This vessel is broken
Ready for the potters hands
To be remolded and refined

Why did it take so long?
What lessons have I learned?
What can I pass on?
The tears have stopped
Anger that was loosened
Now a numb pain
Ready to begin again

Refine this piece of clay Lord
You sheltered me when I was so vulnerable
You shadowed my every move
You loved me when I could not love myself
Making your words come alive
Alive in my heart, in my head

Give me time to restore
To give back what I have wasted
To love, as I should have loved
My moment has come
I’m sure there will be others
Thank you Lord for being patient with me