free fall

The days are confusing
Abiotic world devoid
The chaos seems soothing
But I wish I were still a boy

Intricate misfortune
Twisted with pleasure
Back ally abortion
But who is to measure

Your lack of good judgment
Indiscretion isn't murder
That isn't what I meant
But I'll take it a bit further

and say this

One night of pleasure
May have gone amiss
You learned from your blunder
It started with a kiss

Implicated in crime
Finding reasons to cry
Multiplied in time
Until you try to fly

End it all
With a leap
Free fall
Letting go
You family was asleep
And they will never know

The guilt and shame you had
The horror that made you sadder
The beatings that made you madder
How the weeping made him glad
I thank you for letting go
because now, none of it matters