The overdose

I was in the hotel room taking CAT. I had paid for two nights. I can't remember much about immediately proceeding. Kim was the entity I was communicating with. That is not hear real name, I never discovered her real name. At the time, she claimed to be my spirit guide.

Mike/Jack/Kim (referred to after as Kim [I could never remember her name so the one which came to mind the easiest was 'Mike'. However , the story is more consistent with a female name, since I thought of the being as a 'her'] ) said to me “now”. She told me it was written (in the Akashic record?) that I had died that night and I trusted her. [Later I appealed to the Grand Council but got no reply.] I unwrapped each one (black plastic) and stacked them up.

Kim told me to pour a glass of warm water. I mixed in all the bags except one. There was crystal meth(amphetamine) and the majority, about 32, of methcathinone (CAT). Then I drank the lot. [Oh I mixed the remainder of one in first].

Then I lay down.

Kim said it might be an unpleasant death she couldn't guarantee a painless death. Implied here was that it might be a long drawn out and unpleasant death, happening over a period of days. However, she said that her and her friends would help me as much as they could to make it as painless as possible. Little did I know....

The mixture tasted awful. A strong chemical taste. As it was going down my body recognized it as poison. I did not vomit immediately, though.

I made myself comfortable on the bed, made sure I was dressed nicely. I left a note with my wife's number on the table next to the bed.

I perceived a throng of entities around me, welcoming me, reassuring me, comforting me. There was a great sense of joy and peace. I waited for something to happen. Maybe 5 minutes, 10 minutes or 15, I'm not sure.

“Something's starting to happen”, I said. I could feel something, this part is only vaguely recalled. It felt dangerous yet exciting. Then a pure, pure white veil, ascended rapidly up my body, concentrating and focusing in my brain, a pure white star burst, and I could see Kim for the first time. A distinct blond female face, which I shall never forget. Long, straight blond hair. Good, plain, but beautiful features. Small nose. Beautiful, but in an earthly way. She reminds me of someone, but I can't quite put my finger on who it is. I know her, but I'm not sure from where or when.

There was something or someone next to her, but I cannot remember what. All I remember was her face in a brilliant white star burst. My brain felt like it was frying. Yet I did not feel any pain.

I went unconcious at this point, or perhaps slightly before.

Sequences of events after this are a bit uncertain.