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Divinity She was there Right there Yet she was said to be 'No more' I saw her and I am sure she saw me Though her eyes were closed I know she felt my pain She saw me cry though she could not speak, yet I heard her in my head She knew she had died Her body laid there but she could not make it move Then in the evening I felt her presence In her astral body She moved freely and talked to me normally I could understand her needs She expressed them clearly How she felt Leaving us all Though she was ready For her onward journey She was also sad That her time with us as our mother was over I could tell That she understood Why it must be so Why she has to go People said she was no more That she was gone Who was gone? Her feelings and fears Her love for us all Were right there Mysterious Death You are a Mystery no more for though you seemingly took her away and no word of goodbye could we say But She, our mother came back to me laughing at your attempted finity Perhaps just a day or two after I saw her appear out of thin air Calm and steady Peaceful and divine Glorious in her golden saree just outside her prayer room She stood tall and strong healthy and beautiful Her hair done perfectly just as she loved them to be In a golden aura Woven of threads divine She stood waiting there I watched and gazed in wonder from a little afar by the sitting room door Next I saw my dad come and head for the prayer room but he walked right past her though he knew she was there his gaze averted head held low looking at the floor deliberately avoiding her She spoke to me then Looked at me without turning her head and said- Tell your dad to talk to me He is angry that I left him and went. Another night I saw She stood in our hall She is in a blue heavenly dress she looks intently at my dad sleeping on the side of the bed where she used to lie most of the time Her gaze is focused kindly and divine it's as though she is giving strength to him and watching to see if he is alright Another night in her pink glorious saree I saw her in the dining room I smile and run to her Oh Ma! You have come! As though she had merely gone on a pilgrimage and now she was back where she belonged And to this day a year and few months gone it is the same for me Mom I know is with me still Even stronger and more able than she ever was. "The Lord said- O Arjuna! All beings are invisible in the beginning And at the end become invisible again Only in the middle are they manifest as bodies Then why weep for this situation which is unavoidable?" ******* To be continued- All Copyrights held by author and Kalyani Publications 2008 |