Clouds

You stood there at the train station,
A light that shone through the blackness of my world.
The grey clouds lifting,
My vision clearing.
The sun suddenly felt so scorching on my face.
You reached into my chest, held my lifeless heart in your hand, it bloomed in your hand, became full engorged with blood

But.......

Those clouds there filling my eyes again,
My judgement non exsistent.
Oh the pain,
My hair lying dead at my feet,
Through the mist I try to find my make-up,
The shadows cover my face, my breasts, my back
As I fall into oblivion a dagger punches through my scarred heart
I beg please take the dagger out of my heart
oh goddess those eyes in the moonlight
I can't see life
Just emptyness
I reach in and sow up yet another hole in my pulping mass,
The life is withering away, with each scar
Oh the ache
By the rays of moon I see my reflection
Hide the shadows must hide the shadows


Clamber into bed
An arm comes across my naked sore body
Not a word not a whisper

Sleep claws at me shadowed body

My phone wakes me from a safe home
It's so cloudy outside
I see who it's from
"I love you"
It's so sunny outside