Changing Beats

I try to sleep
Release
Off into the deep
Asking none to weep

         Then desire
         I am tired
         But I want to be here
         So queer
         All I hear
         Is the cheer
         From my peers
         Rejoicing for my years
         Despite my fears

                   Tomorrow
                   No sorrow
                   Every day borrowed
                   Or is it?
                   Exquisite
                   Waking to a visit
                   On this plane
                   In this place
                   Has time seen my face?
                   Does he realize I've escaped?

         I dare
         To share
         To stay
         Not run away
         Not die today

Do I invest?
Seek new quests?
Live with zest?
Am I blessed?

                   Should be
                   Would be
                   How I could be
                   But death reviewed me
                   Choosing to allude me
                   Life tries to renew me
                   Still my fears abuse me

         So I wish to sleep
         Release
         Off into the deep
         But instead there is no grief
         Only turning of a leaf
         So that none may weep