Love or Something Like it

         Those three words are the hardest to say and I don't know why. You've hurt me so much and I resent you for that, but it doesn't mean that I don't love you. It's even weird to think about, you've been with me since before birth; shouldn't I feel some form of attachment to you?
         It's almost time for me to speak and I know what will make you happy, even if it means nothing to me. Palms get sweaty and my heart beings to beat faster, those words make me uncomfortable. My voice low and trembling manages to say "I love you mom," I can't look you in the eyes. It's hard to say something to someone that you never hear from them.