Much Love

i stab myself in the eyes every time you look at me
you were my pride when i lost everything
here with no light you are what i want to see
with sightless dreams you are my reverie
but all my love wont keep you here with me
so now i hunt for my beautiful dream

every time you see me you run like the plague
you could never understand how i’m tortured each day
my mind wont let you go, you are going to stay
if you try to run, you are going to pay
here inside my room, some games we will play
the blood splatters on the floor down from your face

in the early days of life i lusted for your touch
now that i have it i can’t get enough
the sensation i’m getting i can’t stand; it’s too much
i don’t want you to think i use you as a crutch
when you’re motionless in the chair, my blood starts to rush
is it really so wrong to love someone too much