So confused

I always have been dreaming of you.
And when you're near I'm never blue.
When I look at you from afar.
I feel like I don't own my heart.

My heart tells me I shouldn't be
so fond of you, so I could be me.
But now I'm full of misery
While my heart says I shouldn't love thee.

When can I stop acting like this?
But when you're there, there's perfect bliss
Even though you don't know me
Please don't turn a deaf ear to my plea.

I can't control my heart right now.
A way out of this, please tell me how.
But I know I can't look into
Your eyes so stunning, so real and true.

When you're near, I stutter with fear
When you're gone falls a single tear
From my eyes full of misery.
There's never a trace of glee in me.

I can never express how I feel for you.
I'm so petty, all's done and through.
I know you'll never notice me.
Who will ever see my love for thee?

I really don't know how I fell
In love with you, there's like a spell
that you've inflicted upon my heart.
It's so deep, it's like a dart.

I don't know why I feel like this
Like when I see you, I'm full of bliss
A bliss that only could be taken away
When i see you with her, when will be the day?

I'm just a petty child right now
Who's in love with you. I don't know how
to stare right through those stunning eyes.
But when i do, it's paradise

Forgive me for my awkward words.
I know i surprise you, "Who could be this girl
who is so in love with me."
I guess that's what you'll think, it'd be.

But when you finally know who I'm then
I know it's over, it is the end.
But if you know, show me a sign.
And then i think everything'd be fine.

Again i'm sorry, this is sincere
Through this I leave all of my fear.
I like you Dhon, I really do.
My feelings for you are oh so true.