If Only

If only


If only there was a way for me to tell you how I truly feel, if only I had the nerve to tell you. The fear consumes me, fear of losing you forever, fear of losing this thing that we have. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know where to go, I don’t know how to say what I want to say. If only there was a way for me to share my feelings for you. Questions race though my mind through my heart. What should I do, should I tell you, do you want to know, do you feel the same, will I lose you completely if I tell you.
I do not know, what can I do will I ever shed this fear. I’ve fallen for you, I’m forever falling for you, hard and fast, soft and slow. I’m so confused, never felt this way before, so many emotions flow through me and over me. If only there was a way for me to tell you, if only you could see. Am I invisible to you, will you every see me, I’m your friend right here in front of you. Will you ever see me, I see you, I see an angel, a miracle I see. Will I ever be more than a friend, you love me, but are you in love with me. I do not know, will I ever know, I watch you all the time I see all the guys you date, I see them hurt you time and time again. I hurt with you, I feel your pain, every time you say I just want a nice guy, my heart screams I’m right here will you ever see. Every time you say do nice guys even exist, my heart sinks, my heart says I’m right here what can I do to make you see. Will you ever let me love you? I do not know I fear, fear overwhelms me, I would rather have you as my friend than not have you at all. If I tell you I love you will I lose you? If only there was a way for me to tell you. Maybe if I tell you in a another language Eu Te Amo, but no that won’t work either you will never understand what I say. Is there anyway for me to tell you. I will always be here for you, through all your pain, through all your tears. Through all your happiness, through all your joy. I will always be here for you there is nothing in the heavens or on this earth that will stop me from being there. If I tell you I love you will I lose you? If only there was a way for me to tell you. Allow me to show you all the wondrous things you’ve been missing. Give me a chance and I’ll give you heaven. You know what I think of you I tell you all the time. The only thing I fear to say is those three little words, the words that hold the keys to the fabric of the universe. The words that have the power to soar through the heavens. The words that hold the stars in the sky. The words that will give an angel wings, an angel just like you.

If only there was a way for me to tell you. I’ve told you a billion times now
Eu Te Amo, but I don’t have the courage to tell you what it means. You always ask me, you tell me not to be afraid to tell you what it means. Do you already know, have I made it obvious? Should I tell you anyway, the words are right there on the tip of my tongue. But I don’t have the courage, once again my fear consumes me and I can not say the words I so desperately desire to say. We’re just friends, that’s all, will we ever be more than friends I do not know. If only I could tell you, every time you come near me my heart jumps out of my chest, I get week in the knees and almost fall, I start to shake, oh my the words are right there will they come out, no the fear will not allow. We have some fun a snowball fight or two, we find hill and go sledding. We make a snow man, we have a fake fight and fall down in the snow. We lay there for a second, our eyes connect, should I kiss you, I want to. But no the fear consumes me once again, I tickle you a little to break the moment and then I help you up. I take you home one more time, I wish you a goodnight and the sweetest of all dreams, you say thank you as always and wish me the same. We give each other a hug, I feel you close to me, my heart starts to pound my body quivers, should I tell you now do you want me to tell you? I do not know, the fear takes over and we let go we say good night one more time and I go home and write. If only I could tell you how I feel. If only I could tell if you wanted to know. If only if only if only
Eu Te Amo Emilia Ti Amo
I Love You Emilia I love you
One day I will tell you One day I will have the Courage
Do you love me?



Author David Christopher Thompson
Copyright 2008