Tankas

A tanka written for the one who held me first.

Together we grew,
Watched eachother become more,
You know who you are,
Always loved one another
and became very close too,

Once heard you'd protect,
and take care of me somehow,
But where were you then?
I yelled out very loudly,
Did you know I was in pain?

Why? You just stood there,
Like a nail in a forehand,
Listening to me,
As I tryed to escape them,
Is this how you protect me?

I don't understand,
Is this what a family is?
People who want things
just only for their own good?
Please help me know now.

You are my close friend,
I know that you have loved me,
No words can express,
this deep feeling inside me,
of the love I have for you.

Wow, 26 now!,
Yes, I've written these poems,
word's from my heart,
not to make you think of me.
But more of my Father now.

We've been through so much,
yes, together and seperate,
There are no real words,
To express all of this now,
The pain has come and been gone

You've questioned so much,
and I pray you'll know someday,
I would not be here,
if it wasn't for Himself
You know I just want Him now.

So, what happens next?
Isn't there more to us now?
I am tired of all this,
I sure really do want more.
There is meaningless chatter.

You're always with me,
Thinking of who you've become,
I'm thankful for you,
In that story I gave you,
You have been my excitement.

and made me laugh when I just wanted to cry...