Pain that haunts me in my dreams

he hit me
and told me
i wasnt good enough
he said
to do better
my mother deserved more
i didnt
know what
i was suppose to do
i was
only
10
he said
that i didnt deserve
to live
the way
i did
he said
that i
was a rotten
brate
i cried
that night
before
i almost died
before
i almost took
those pills
down with
the bottle
was what
would have happened
but
something stopped
me
something
my inner self
told me it
was ok
told me
it would be over soon
he'd stop hitting me
and telling me
that i wasnt good enough
it would be over
soon
and
now i live on
without him
watching over me