The final prayer of a man on the edge

                                        Hey big guy,

                                        up in the sky.

                            Are you still there or is it too late?

                        Will I die alone? What a horrible fate!

                  Will I be with you when death is at my door?

                          That's all I want I ask for no more.

                I've done things I regret more than anyone knows.

                    No longer do I do the evil things I once did.

                Is it enough to be regretful and hope you forgive?

                    Night after night the nightmares don't cease.

                              When will I ever find peace?

                  I'm just a man trying to live my life trouble free.

              But the demons of past deeds just won't let me be.

                        Day after night and night after day,

                      I feel my self slowly losing my way.

              They say stick to your guns and do the right thing.

                  They say don't fall back into your old routine

                I work till I bleed and still my thoughts stray

                      telling me that there is an easier way

          Turn your back on the law and what you know to be right

                creep through the shadows and avoid the light.

                      For years these voices I used to obey

                  thinking they could show me a better way.

        Tonight I stand tall and walk with my head held up high

                knowing that God will be with me when I die.

                I turned my back on all I once knew and did

                  but the shadows of the past I'll never be rid

                              so I live my life day to day

                            keep faith in God and I pray

                      asking him to help me keep my way.