happy

Happy

I want to be happy.
The feeling of euphoria,
Running through my veins.
The glare in my eyes,
As the light hits the retina.
The relief of stress,
Leaving my brain and vessels.
As the veins and arteries dilate.
From this joyous sensation.
My muscles relaxing on my face,
As the smile grows,
Showing the world its glory.
But alst, this is a temporary state.
For the more i try to grasp it,
The farther it gets to me.
and my negative energy and thoughts seems,
More powerful than my positive.
As the joy exits stage right,
The negative sets in.
and the vessels and brain constrict.
My heart begins to tighten.
My face produces my frown,
With watery eyes.
I wish happiness was my permanent state of mind.