Moral Dilemma

You,
I don't know you anymore
I don't know
What to think anymore
A little more than a month ago
You hated me beyond reason

Because I tried to help you
With your problems
Your drugs, alcohol and others more serious
But I was hesitant
As you were holding us
Our relationship
Over my head

On me not telling
The people, who could get you help
Then of course
I gots an idea
Break up with you
So I can help you reguardless

I did that!
And you hated me for it!

And now,
You want me back?
I don't understand!
Was that the drugs speaking?
Or you?
The drugs I think were speaking before
As you love me now
More than ever you led me to think

I, I don't know what to think
I can see you in my mind
But I don't know what to think
Yes I still have some feelings
But you threatened to kill me!
To hire gangs' thugs to do the job

Its a Moral Dilemma
Because you were everything
That was once bad in my life
But are you yin now
There's no way to know
Without taking a HUGE chance
And I shall take it
Because
I still love you
I will trust you
Just give a time and place
And in time
I will see

We will see
If this
Will work
As good as before
Or maybe, better

But of corse
After the first few
Refirst dates
In which i will have
A concealed weapon
My weapon of choice on me
Incase this is a trap
And you try and kill me
I don't want to hurt you
Not again
This is agaist
All my morals that i own
I'm going with my gut instincts alone
This moral dilemma
I might never know
Whether the fight is worth it
But I'm trying
And that's all you need to know
That and this thinking
Hurts my mind, body and heart
Don't make me break you again, please

I know you couldn't take another one
I think i'd rather use that knife
To kill myself in your presents
If you try to kill me
It would be your fault, Directly
My suicide, might be your fault
That is,
If I made the wrong choice
In trusting you again
But if this isn't a trap
We shall Blaze a New Trail
Together, Forever