I Have Seen Better Days

Everyday seems like an eternity,
Every minute seems like a lifetime,
I count the seconds as they pound in my head,
Waiting to see if this pain will ever end.

Day by day, hour by hour,
the frustation never subsides,
knowing in my heart it will be better,
knowing in my mouth the taste will be sour.

The greatest dont always succeed,
this is lifes way of making them humble,
the losers sometimes see a shed of light,
only knowing that soon they will stumble.

Why oh why does it hurt so bad,
How was I able to make her cry,
Her smiling face, her endless eyes,
All is gone, trying so hard not to die.

To only know what drives her to live on,
That is the question I ponder each day,
Having hurt so bad, for so long,
Its a miracle she can still look me in the face.

So it has come the time to reconsider,
to change, to feel, to understand.
Looking deep to unbury the truth,
Being careful not to hurt her again.

So its true, better days have come,
and who's to say this is the end,
with everyday as a constant reminder,
how it could have been................

Happiness is gone, the pain is full throttle,
stabbing and twisting, making its point,
All I can wish for is a friendship,
But even then, I still wont be as happy again!!!