I'm the Girl

I'm the girl in the corner of the room,
trying to remain oblivious.
I stare at their smiles.
I cry to myself trying not to draw attention.
I never let people reach inside of my mind.
I'm never close enough.

I'm the dumb girl who waits for that call.
I never find love where love's willing to give.
I give to much and rarely take,
I take what I can never give.
I hide my mouth when I smile or laugh.
I laugh to hide the pain.

I'm that girl who never really belongs.
Even in a crowd, I'm alone.
I spend most of my time alone.
I can't sleep at night, but I'm tired all day.
When the sun rises I won't open my eyes.
I'm sick of what I see.

I'm the girl in the bed, holding my knees.
Never anything there to hold me.
I stare at the ceiling for hours at a time.
I yell at the walls to try to release.
Anger builds up inside of me.
I wish I was never born.

I'm the girl who loves to go out in the rain.
Sometimes we all need the world to ourselves.
I'm the girl in the jerk's arms
looking for a substitute for love.
I'm the girl in the cemetery holding the earth.
Knowing he can't hold me.