Everything I Am

"Everything I Am" 7.21.07

Feeling worthless and praying to God
Burrow beneath the sheets in hopes of finding love
I'm pretty sure this is just another melt down
So thank this complex social matrix for the lack of my whereabouts.
You know I was never one for numbers
But I never meant for you to look at me that way.
You told me "nothing's unconditional"
Then I guess my love's a lie
So I won't waste my time.
I hate this social matrix
I can't seem to make this right.
I want something out of nothing
But beggars can't be choosers
And I'm guilty of forgetting this.
Instead I keep looking back
For someone I never knew
And some place I've never been.
I never thought I'd say this but,
The only thing I want is love
So you can take the rest and put it back where it belongs.
Feeling worthless I pray to God
But I'm not sure He's heard my words
And all I can do is cling to this thought
While the cold bites and sinks into my bones.
But I still feel alone.
I can thank this complex social matrix for it
This lack of feeling that I get,
And, I can't help but feel as if
You're all around me.
I surely hate this feeling.
I still want something
I want something out of nothing.
And I can't help but keep regretting
Everything I am.