behind closed doors...

confused, barren, wasted...
it was how I described myself as I refused to believe...
as I was in denial of what was happening around me...

the world turns...
but I am left behind...
sufficed only by the lies of the people around me...
I feel betrayed...

I trust almost no one...
as i am tortude by my own confusion...
waiting on the truth to reveal itself to me...
I had a realization...

it was time for me to leave everything...
everything that had clouded my thoughts...
everything that kept on torturing my heart...
and finally accept what is in front of me...

She will never understand me...
I cannot restore my childhood...
I'll always be a mediocre academician...
There are only a few people in this world who really know me...

poison of my own mind...
betrayed, hurt, and concede...
a day was wasted...
for me to realize what i had become...

a person who was nothing...
a shell of what I was...
but no more...

a resolve rises from the broken cocoon of my depression...
I rise from my own ghost...
I walk again as me!
I was born once again without the giant shadow of my past!
they will never crush me again, I will not let them!
I am my own person, regardless of what they say!
I am reborn!