self-esteem!

I lack very much in self-esteem.
Due to people, & situations, that i have encountered & found myself in the middle of throughout my life.
Whenever i reach the suitable level of confidence, that i am aiming for, someone is alway's ther to knock me back down again.
It's the story of my lifelong struggle, of  the painfully drawn out process of my life journey. A struggle whichever way i have turned.  Even though i wonder sometimes "What is the point, because i just know people are taking the mickey out of me!", I never let anything beat me.