Unwanted Companion

this is about feelings that stalk me

"Unwanted Companion"

There you are again.
You left me for a short while today.
But now you see that I'm alone,
and you come back and tap me
on my shoulder.
You go by many names.
Sometimes I call you Fear.
Other times you are Confusion.
Today you are known as Anxiety.
Why couldn't you leave me be,
just for one day?
I know you are waiting for me
to give you a reason to leave.
But I don't feel strong today.
I can't fight you off.
You twist my heart and make me cry.
You are responsible for this lump
in my throat.
It's you that's sitting so heavily
on my chest.
My stomach churns at the thought of you.
Please go away.
I can't think when you're around.
I know you won't go
until I've fought you and won.
I pray for strength to do just that.
You may be stronger than me today,
but the time will come when I will leave you
beaten and defeated on the floor.
I hope that day is soon.