Euphoria

My horoscope says I am entering a period of good luck. It has said this for several days, but I have been feeling it for more than a few days. I have a great irl support group that is prodding me to fiinsh my novel, and I am making progress. My four yr old requested I write a story just for her, to bad she wants everything pink in it. I have found the house I want, and while it is just outside my grasp I can feel it edging toward me like a handsome stranger on the dance floor. When it was finally pointed out that it was nearer people that I didn't want to be around I just didn't care. And that is where I think this feeling lies.
For how long have I lived my life trying to please EVERYONE, and ultimately pleasing no one. I have accepted where I am and yet I strive for more, knowing it is to late for somethings but having learned from them as well. In that knowledge is power, liberation and this feeling that I have bubbling up within me.
No more guilt for not feeling or doing what people want me to, even though doing so goes against every fiber of my being. No more, giving in just to keep the peace. No more emotional blackmail. I am free, and I am releasing those chains and stepping out of the dark dungeon and into the beautiful sunshine that I should have been in all along.
It's finally sunk in : those that hold you down, are not the ones who truly love you. I only want those who truly love me in my life now and am hereby banishing all that blackness from my life.